You may say you want to seek God with all your heart and desire to know His word deeply. Your next steps will tell you how much of all your heart is involved.
Imagine waking up outside after a night of terror in Kaikoura only to find the Chinese have commandeered all of the helicopters to fly them out to safety.
Choose you this day whom you will serve . . . as for me and my house we will serve the Lord. (Joshua 24:15) This side of eternity is the time to decide.
God will not hold us responsible to understand the mysteries or election predestination and divine sovereignty. These things belong to the deep and mysterious Profound of God’s omniscience.